Tuesday, January 27, 2009
heres the customary line.. happy lunar new year!
sigh.. why why why. why cant i have home cooked mee pok dry and not wash the dirty bowls.
i dont knw what i am talking about lah. sian.
blogs are superficial. and it took me awhile to see this. sian.
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Saturday, January 24, 2009
i know i keep stabbing myself. i know i am stupid. i purposely set myself up for the traps i can see. and i always fall right into it, every single last one of the traps.
why do i keep expecting something i know i wont get..? why do i keep believing that someday somehow i would receive what i deserve for giving what i gave?
and yah. why must i tolerate? i keep telling ppl to tolerate, to make peace, to keep the fabric. but when ppl ask why is it at their expense, i can no longer give an ans. in fact now, i am questioning myself. why should i tolerate? why cant others tolerate? why should i get the shorter end of the stick just so that nothing breaks? can anyone tell me why? why issit at my expense?
it takes 2 hands to clap. duh. but everytime the sound doesnt come out, i will always analyze myself first and blame myself. am i demanding too much from myself? until the point when i give too much but cant receive back my expectations?
forget it. i know e ans myself. . . such a vicious cycle.. eventually i am still blaming myself for having high expectations....
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Thursday, January 15, 2009
i need to learn to count my blessings. if i have to score myself, its a pretty good score actually. but i just dont feel as contented as i should be. zzz. maybe its e lack of sleep that is making me snappy and grumpy. yeah. i aint having my 14hours of rest for a long long time...
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Sunday, January 11, 2009
Since U Been Gone
alright. shall do this thingie. seems kinda fun. ask questions and answer with song titles.. ..
shall use songs from my ipod.
RULES:
1. Put Your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on Shuffle
2. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS
3. Put any comments in brackets after the song name
1. What is your motto?
You Don't Know My Name - Alicia Keys
(.... well....)
2. What do your friends think about you?
My Destiny - Katharine Mcphee
(where is this leading to?!)
3. What do you think about very often?
Other Side Of The World - K T Tunstall
(mm... well i do daydream of going on some exotic maldive island holiday..)
4. What is 2+2 ?
You Are So Beautiful - Taylor Hicks
(i know its 4!!)
5. What do you think of the person you like?
Lets Hear It For The Boy - Vonzell Solomon
(for the record, i'm straight... lol)
6. What is your life story?
Diary - Alicia Keys
(penned down daily in my handwritten diary... ok not daily. . )
7. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Karma - Jessican Mauboy
(i'll be in everybodys' conscious.. muahaha.)
8. What do you think when you see the person you like?
Disco Mdley - Donna Summers
(*shakes some ass* lol....)
9. What do your parents think of you?
I Still... - Backstreet Boys
(I STILL WHAT?!?! OEI!! still a brat? still fat? still short? WHAT?!)
10. What will you dance to at your wedding?
She Will Be Loved - Maroon 5
(*grins* i will so play that song. absolutely enchanting..)
11. What will they play at your funeral?
Try A Little Tenderness - Taylor Hicks
(i dont like taylor.. and hey.. its my funeral! smth less upbeat plzz)
12. What is your hobby/interest?
The Moment - Stephanie Sun
(the moment of what? -.-)
13. What is your biggest secret?
Shi Jie Mo Ri - Jay Chou
(translates to "doomsday" to all u potatoes out there. lol. maybe i have some awesome power.. =D)
14. What do you think about your friends?
Trust Me - The Fray
(sure anot... lol. )
15. What's the worst thing that could happen?
爱情证书 - Stephanie Sun
(lol. i dont understand the title. =X but i think its about love.. right?? help me translate leh! lol)
16. How will you die?
Long Juan Feng - Jay Chou
("tornado" in chinese... OMG. i'm actuall gonna die in a tornado. lol..)
17. What is the one thing you regret?
Ju Hua Tai - Jay Chou
("chrysanthemum terrace". i'll look out for one from now on.. lol)
18. What makes you laugh?
Unchained Melody - Clay Aiken
(lol. make me out to be so sadistic. ok lah. maybe when twits like me try and sing the high note..)
19. What makes you cry?
End Of The World - Blake Lewis
(sobs. actually i cry quite easily over sad stuff..)
20. Will you ever get married?
Shape Of My Heart - Backstreet Boys
(ok.. is that a no?)
21. What scares you the most?
Infatuation - Maroon 5
(having one makes it hard to manage... but scary meh.. haha.)
22. Does anyone like you?
Knocks Me Off My Feet - Elliot Yamin
(sounds pretty impactful. haha.)
23. If you could go back in time and change one thing, what would it be?
Judges Medley - Top 12 (American Idol Season 3)
(YA LOR. i love jennifer hudson. she got booted too early)
24. What hurts right now?
Longer - David Archuleta
(i can see the dirty looks being shot at me already. HAHAHA)
25. What would you post this as?
Since You Been Gone - Kelly Clarkson
(sure...)
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Tuesday, January 06, 2009
honestly, i dont like singapore drama shows. the characters irk me. seriously. i just watched this "reunion dinner" show on channel 8. it is now showing in e time slot the little nyonya used to show. ok that nyonya show is pretty good actually. good characters, good plot.
but the thing that irks me about these drama shows is how they use CHILDREN in their plots. this reunion dinner casted the children as rude little indignant pricks who are consumed in their bad habits of internet, handphones, psp and wadever u can think of. oh so portraying lil kids acting like this is entertaining?! i hardly think so. the more i watch it, the more i can see where kids can learn their actions from. in the show, the kids retort to their parents and even curse them. so is this acceptable?? the kid in the show gets away with it leh. wont your kid watch, learn and improvise? and its quite all-encompassing also leh, to give it some "credit". showing kids from pri 2 up to sec sch, literally giving them a guide. this isnt even some censorship issue but clearly a case of feeble castings! and when u talk to kids sometimes, they just say "oh on tv also lidat".. i am not surprised leh. the tv shows are encouraging kids to become little tykes. i admit that i am super strict (to kids at least). if its me i'll just slap the kids i am takin care of if they retort me like that. *imagines in glee*
why cant kids be more well behaved. i hate misbehaving kids. really hate. really really really hate. how can kids be allowed to behave like this?! they dont knw SHIT. i'll nvr allow kids under my charge to misbehave. its such a bad reflection on the upbringing, the guardianship, and the teachings!
i like kids.. but with a time frame. from the moment they born up to around age 2, they are lovable. after that, urgh. they become tyrants. have u ever been to a restaurant and this lil kid talks loudly and starts banging his cutlery and cries. or how about a shopping mall when the kid wants to sit in this cute lil trolley car thing but the parents dont allow. or the kid wants to eat some shitty food but e parents refuse to buy. yes u get marthafarkingirritating children. urgh. wish i can just walk up to them and slap their faces 3 times. the first time to shock them, second to balance the other side of e face. and third time to satisfy myself. ok kidding. second time is when they start crying louder. they confirm will. den u tell them to stop crying. den u slap them a third time so that they will stop crying. well, if they dont stop, just revel in repeating the third slap.
URGH. i hate whiny kids.
gosh. i sound scary. hahaha. well, kids cant fight back, can they? haha
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Friday, January 02, 2009
i dont know why i am blogging this.. but...
all the world's a stageand the men and women merely playersnot pawns, oh dear no. merely players, playing a role that will have their best interests at heart.
no one is really truly expressing the truth. that everyone is merely creating stories tht are to their best interests. to put it severely, everyone lies. everyone lies about something, one way or e other. and the people who still tell e truth are e people who will get hurt at e end of e day, when the people who lie get away with it. no i am not advocating lying. but i am not advocating telling the truth either. we have to lie to a certain degree. .
its about finesse. not making it look like a lie. you just dont have to tell e truth. or u just dont have to reveal e truth. its also about balance. not over lying, and also not lying about issues that are too big.. a skilled player gets his/her way of course, and leaves an everlasting impeccable impression that speaks volumes.
yes its superficiality. thats e one word i wanna stem my entry from. its all images. impressions. superficial acts that seems larger den what they really are. and its a fact. if one dont follow suit, he/she is at the losing end already. . . tv shows always dramatize how the truth is always revealed... but no one notices how much a price e protaganist always had to pay. . .
no one tells e truth. everyone's a player..
and clearly riding on this tragedy, are people who judge others based on what they see, but not what they fully comprehend. urghhhh. i reaaalllyy cannot get over this. i just dont understand how people are able to make comments about a situation based on face value.. is this how superficial people really are?!
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